Wednesday, January 18, 2006

DEPRESSED!

Tollie is in Tyler. I don't want to do anything! I think I am depressed. I told him to night on the phone that from here on out, I want to go with him. I woul only miss a day for work. That wouldn't be too bad. I just don't like being here by myself. I don't seem to get much done.

Yesterday was not a good day at work. At least, not in the work department. I didn't have anything to do. I did some genealogy stuff on the internet. Didn't really find anything new. The only work I had to do was to address seven envelopes. My boss has been real busy lately, in meetings and such. I think it will be this way for a while. So.....I guess its not too bad to get paid for sitting and playing card games and looking on the internet. But it sure makes for a long day! I think I feel a little guilty, too, making all that money and no hard work.

I talked with my baby tonight. She is enjoying her internship already. She said they have already given her some projects to work on. She spent some time looking on the internet for some information and had it ready when asked for it. The lady was very impressed she had this information so quickly. Helped to make Mindy feel needed and that she could make a difference there. She is really praying for direction as to how God will use her. Most of the people there are there to help the impoverished. But she senses that most just enjoying helping and not because they want to share the good news of Christ. She said she didn't want to be judgemental but she didn't think there were many there who were Christians, even though the whole organization was founded by Catholic nuns. It seems they want to keep religion out of everything. This will be a challenge for her!

I had dinner with my grandbabies last night. I met the kids at Chili's and it is so fun to have the girls see me and run to me and say, "Piggy, I missed you and love you." Emma says "Granma, I love you." They just hug me and hang on to me. When it came time to leave, Ashton didn't want me to go. They wanted to stay with me. That is so fun and so rewarding to have these beautiful little girls who laugh and make you laugh! God blesses me everyday with my kids and grandkids.

The dinner theater play rehearsals are going well. I have nearly memorized all of my lines. I plan to have them all memorized by this Sunday's rehearsal. I have told several at work about it and they seem excited to be invited to come. I hope it will be a rewarding time for all. I think it will be fun. I am Leah and as you know, she had so many children. No wonder, I am Leah. I love babies!

I am ready to go to bed already. Oh.....it is later than I thought. I didn't realize it was this late. It is 10:30 and so I guess it is time to go to bed. It will be a long, lonely night. I never sleep as well when Tollie is gone. He will be back tomorrow. Hopefully, before too late. Then on Friday, we go to Houston and will have some time for ourselves. We then pick up missionary friends from the airport on Saturday. That will be fun. They will come back and stay with us for a few days. Have a great "rest" of the week and weekend.

Tuesday, January 17, 2006

DIDN'T WANT TO, BUT I DID!

This morning Tollie left for Tyler. He left early so he could get an early start and get a lot done. He has a lot to do in the next three days and wanted to spend every minute making it happen. So....I stayed in bed a little longer and relaxed. But then I got up and thought of three or four really good reasons why I shouldn't do my routine this morning. But I found myself walking that way to do it anyway! And I did it. At one point, I thought, "I could just do half now and half time later!" But you know what? I stuck with it and did it anyway. It reminded me that I can do it, even when I don't want to do it.

We had our second dancing lesson last night. It was so much fun. Tollie and I are doing better at it. We had a hard time with our steps, getting them in sinc with the beat. The foxtrot consists of slow, slow, quick, quick, which sounds like four beats. But when you are muscially inclined such as Tollie, it didn't come out in time right. The slows were like half quarter notes and the quicks were like 8th notes. It just didn't add up. After talking with our instructor we realized you are really doing three steps to four beats! Well, not exactly, you just start the fourth beat on the first beat! Anyway, it explained a lot and helped us be much smoother. Actually, I didn't have my toes stepped on as much.

We were saddened though that one of the couples quit last night. It just wasn't his thing and they left before we got started. He was just not comfortable. So....we are down to three. But I can tell you that Tollie and I are sticking it out. It is good exercise and I enjoy it. I am still trying to learn to follow! If you know me, that is a hard one for me. I want to lead and I have to be led. Good lessons all around!

My baby girl is starting her internship today. I have said new job, but really it is not a job. She doesn't get paid for this. She is working with Operation Breakthrough in Kansas City and I know she will get a lot of hands on experience. Where did the time go? Where did my baby go? She will graduate with her masters in May! Whew! I am getting older! I am so happy for her and the opportunity she has with this and the possibilities coming her way. Thank you for your prayers for her today and this week.

I want to thank her boyfriend, Trent, for flying to Tulsa to meet her and be with her on the drive to Kansas City on Friday. I think it was a real help to her and I know it showed some care and concern for her. Thank you, Trent.

I must run and get to work. When you only work two days a week, it can mean a lot to do or not much to do. We will see when we get there, but when I get there later, it seems there is more to do. Have a great day!

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Writing from work. There has not been much to do today! I have looked on the computer, the internet for genealogy stuff and ate lunch with four other co-workers, played a little solitaire and am thinking of leaving early because I don't have much to do. My boss wants me to do his work, not any of the other guys here and that means I have to sit and wait on him. It can make for a long day. But....I do like my job. I get paid well to sit and write and look on the internet and talk with my co-workers. Not many opportunities like that and only two days a week. The other executive assistant (to my same boss) is thinking of quitting because she just feels too bored and he doesn't allow her to help him that much. She is trying real hard to get him organized and I think every one of his assistants has tried that for years. It just doesn't work. He wants things done his way in his time! So.....you wait a lot. But that is fine with me.

I am leaving early to eat supper with my kids and g-kids. I hope to put some pictures here soon of my darling little angels. Emma was sitting in my lap on Sunday and we were watching a music video. I was singing with the video and she was looking up at me and nearly went to sleep. If the video had been any longer she would have fallen asleep. That is special moments when grandma is holding those angels.

Gotta run, we are meeting in twenty minutes.