Saturday!

It is Saturday. Tollie is out mowing and edging the yard. We have the grand-girls this weekend. J & P are in Houston with the teens. So......I have fed them and now I am doing my thing at this moment. Not sure how long it will last, but we will see.

I am a little disappointed that I have not had any response to my question. But, I have to remember that my musings are only musings where as other blogs have long standing readership. I am saddened that my own husband has not joined my band wagon. But it will not deter me from continuing on with my blogging and musings. I enjoy it too much to stop now.

I feel alive. I think after so much anger and sorrow and heartache, I have finally arrived on the other side, refreshed and alive. I think that is what the blogging has done. Connected me to others and given me some new sod. Other than my back giving me problems, (Oh dear! I have become my mother!), I have felt better and more productive. I am actually excited about some things. This has been a long time coming. I know Tollie is relieved to have me back.

I am looking forward to the next week. I think dear friends will be here for a few days and that will revive me even more! Hope to take the girls to the movies this afternoon. The weekend is getting away from me and I need to go and make great memories with my girls. (The most exciting thing to me is that one day I will have more babies to spoil!) God is good.

Grandmother Duties

Grandmother! What a job. I think God knew that as mothers we needed something improtant in our later years to help us think, grow and just be happy. Grandmothering does all that and more. I love being a grandmother. Hearing the words, Piggy, I love you, sends love all around me. Emma, my youngest, said that to me just this morning. I was feeding her breakfast from the back of the van when she looked up and said this.

Thank you God for the job you have given me and I love it. I just hope I am making good memories for the girls to take them into their adult years.

Question!

Is there a difference in:

bringing others to Jesus

and

taking Jesus to others?

By bringing are we asking them to take on our traditions and idiosyncrasies?

By taking are we allowing them the freedom to be what Jesus wants and not what we want?

Just thinking.......

Blogging

Wow! I never thought I would enjoy this blogging so much. I have heard from people I don't know, from people who I have known of in the past and from friends. I think I enjoy it because I feel so connected.

For so many years, I felt very isolated in Beaumont. I had no family here and when my church family was falling apart and separating, it was very lonely. There are times I still feel lonely and mainly from own choosing. But it is almost impossible to feel lonely these days. I have friends, making new friends and most importantly, I have my grandchildren to keep me company.

God is truly an awesome God who loves me and takes care of me. I am slowly returning to Him after so many years of anger, resentment and loneliness. The really awesome thing is that he is standing there; ready to take me back, even after my awful rudeness and anger! That is truly a God I can worship!

Family

Just read BST's blog and am pondering over it. It brought back many memories, bad memories of questions being asked that have nothing to do with the tea in china!! Just questions that want to trap! All these questioners want is to be validated in their beliefs, to prove they are right and you are wrong. To puff up their chests and say see what we know? We know the right way and I believe you are the wrong way and I want you to know it.

I responded to BST and told him basically the above. I also suggested they be responded to in questions of
1. "Why are you interested in Zoe if you have already formed your opinion as to who they are?" and
2. "Have they checked all their group's families and made sure they are not listening to the radio?"

This being said, I can't understand why so many people have to butt into other's faces and correct them when they just need to focus on their own lives and make sure they are doing the right thing! I guess that is my real deal, while they are lurking around trying to find people to correct, they are making mistakes on their own. I don't have time to check everyone else out. I have enough of my own to correct, I don't have to go find more!!! I'm glad they have it all together, because I certainly don't.

We went walking this morning and I feel really energized and ready for the day today. I hope I continue to feel better. I discovered that if I take my new medication when I get home or at supper time, then I feel better in the morning.

I plan to clean house and get ready for company this weekend.

In a Fog

I woke this morning in a fog. I have a headache and could not get up to exercise. My loving husband decided to lie with me and let me sleep, instead of getting me on my feet and out walking.

I have mixed emotions concerning that. We both have been told by the doctors we need to exercise more and we love our walks. But......why is it so hard to get up in the mornings and just go do the walk? Hummmmmm.......is there a parallel there?

It sounds easy enough, I have motivation to do it, I feel better when I do and yet......

Memorial Day

Today is a holiday. A day of remembrance.

Now I find my husband at work, my daughter on the road to Austin and my other children here, sleeping or watching TV. What are we remembering?

We did celebrate today. We had a birthday breakfast for our oldest daughter. She is now 30. I have a 30 year old? Wow, where did the time go?

Yesterday was a good day of worship. I did really get into the worship. I realize that many times I am not intense in my worship with two precious souls climbing up and down and all over me. But I found that if I prepare myself I can worship intensely. It was a good day. I look forward to more days of intense worship.

Now, if I can just remember where I put my cross stitch?

It's Sunday Again!

Wow! Here it is Sunday again! Seems only yesterday, we were at last Sunday. Where is the time going? I feel like life is rushing past me and I am standing in the mist of the swirling air as it passes.

I have felt so tired lately but think I have finally figured out what is causing my tiredness. So...maybe the next week will be better for me.

We got rain yesterday and it has already rained today. Thank you God. I have been asking for rain. My yard was about to blow away and I have watered and watered. But it has not helped that much. The faucet water keeps my plants from wilting totally away, but it is amazing to me to see my plants perk up when the rain comes, even a little. It is like they just open up their hearts and let the rain in.

I just made a comment on Neal Whitlow's blog concerning his comments on worship. He was saying he wished we could have worship that was boring. Boring in the sense that the people worshipping were so intense in their worship that others looking on would think it was boring. I agreed with him that I thought it would be good worship but hard to see it happening because we are Americans. We want our cups filled right now! It is hard to wait on the type of worship he was describing.

I think about the rain and how we can pretend to worship all day long. Like the plants with the faucet water, it might keep us from wilting but would we really open up with an intense worship from the heart that did not look at clocks and did not repeat rote prayers! Would we, like the plants, open up more to God? I think we would. I would like to try it......and I think I will be more conscious this morning as I worship to not think about the things around me but to really be intense in my worship.

I will let you know how it affected my worship this morning. Have a great day in the Lord!